Wed. Dec 11th, 2024

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So I just found out that My childhood molester has been shot to death…
I was molested by a male neighbor when I was only about 7 or so. Days later, I tried to tell my mom but she thought I was lying and scared me by yelling at me saying I'd be in big trouble for lying about something like that so I locked up and just pretended like it didn't happen and said I made it up. It's been 30 years I've lived with this trauma and I've thought about it daily almost. It's the most agonizing thing that will come crashing into my thoughts, especially at the worst or best times and no matter how hard I try, I can never stop it. It's bothered me so much that in recent years I did some digging and actually found the guy living an hour away and discovered he had numerous sexual assault charges and had been to prison for armed robbery,rape, SA of a minor, drugs etc. I thought about going to get some revenge and hurting him but I didn't want to end up where he did. In prison…I decided to let karma handle it. It seemed like he was living a very shitty life and I thought maybe that could be a punishment itself. Fast forward about a year and just the other day my elderly neighbor calls me to tell me the news she had learned from the family. So turns out he was estranged with his family ,living in his car homeless and was shot to death and died alone. I was happy to hear it and I even celebrated it by getting drunk that night. I know that sounds wrong but that guy brought pain and suffering to many people including me. Am I wrong for feeling that way? Im not really sure how I'm supposed to feel. Would god look down upon me for thinking that? And if so, why would he let someone take my childhood innocence away and make me live with that trauma?



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  1. The thing I would want you to do is confront your mother and tell her what an awful person she is for not believing you, for not protecting you, and instead traumatizing you further.

    Not to say you should do that, that’s a choice for you to make, but she deserves to be berated at the very least for that.

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