Are you feeling the retrograde yet?

BD: Dec 28

I know it isn't official until September, but I've found that I start experiencing the effects of retrogrades a few weeks or maybe a month in advance and sometimes there is a bit of a hold-over after it's complete.

In the last few weeks, I've gotten a whirlwind of life-changing information that harkens back to my past. But at the same time, it's the type of gift that has made me think long and hard if I want to continue working in the corporate world.

Let me tell a story.

For my entire life growing up, I had a dream of entrepreneurship. I was a boy born to a half German mother and that was a large part of my identity, being German (but I live in America). During my teens I was ambitious about business and would freelance web development on the side, or start small online businesses.

This all changed in 2008. I started college in 2006, and while 2006-2008 I still had these same focus and thoughts, around 2008 I quit building businesses. I don't know why I quit, but I can go to the way back archive and map it out when it happened. In 2008 I became focused on what I wanted to do with my life and it coalesced into becoming very serious about computer science and eventually working in big tech.

I went on this path for the entire transit of Pluto through Capricorn and it was in 2020 after Saturn left Capricorn, still having Pluto in Capricorn, that I finally broke into big tech. And then I did it again at my next company.

In March of 2023, when Pluto left Capricorn for the first time, I quit big tech. And mind you, I had no idea of anything about zodiacs at this time. It wasn't until I heard about the entire pluto in capricorn thing a few months later that I started putting two and two together.

So, I left big tech in 2023, because I wanted to start a business. All of the sudden, I felt very entrepreneurial again, and this has been cycling in and out of my life since then. I took another job in Dec of last year because I felt like I needed to, which I promptly quit in Feb of this year, and I started working on entrepreneurship again.

For a long time during the transit of pluto through Capricorn, I had wanted to move abroad. I was a German and would have liked to live in Europe for some time. But it wasn't really an option for me. I could maybe find a job but I would be on visas and I have children and it just felt too risky to do when I have a good thing going here. Another thing that happened, during this time, is I started to feel like I wasn't German. I would talk to Europeans and it was just "yeah, my grandma came from germany" and they don't care. It made me feel out of place at times and not accepted for who I am by the people I came from.

Well, by 2023 I had put most of this behind me, I am an American, I love America. I had accepted that I'll never go to Europe for any extended time, it's just not in the cards for me.

This brings us to now.

A few weeks ago, I became pessimistic about entrepreneurship. My business doesn't seem to be working like I want, and it just seems really hard. Lately I have been playing with the thought of going back to corporate, but at the same time I know that it's not what I really want. This has been weighing on me, but because I understand astrology, I understand that this is a time for reflection and to find out what my true direction is.

Lo and behold, four days ago I received news that because a law in Germany changed June of this year, I'm now eligible for German citizenship. It feels like my past is slowly returning and I'm getting to finally become who I want to be.

Before, I couldn't move to Europe without a job, but that obstacle has been removed. Today, I can both build a business and live in Europe.

So, that's just a long story so that I can ask: how is the retrograde treating you?