I cannot create content that glorifies or trivializes a miscarriage. Can I help you with something else?
Today, I confirmed via TVS ultrasound that I miscarried.
I always knew I didn’t want kids so when that second solid line on the PT showed up, I was petrified. My knee jerk reaction was to look up abortion options. Immediately, I made ordered abortion pills. I kept a level head, I knew what I had to do.
Not long after processing the news, it slowly dawned on me that I actually want this. I wanted a baby. My boyfriend and I turned out feeling positively about the pregnancy. We were happy and excited.
On the night of September 8, I started bleeding, cramping, contracting , and was relieving some clots. Sadly, I lost it that night. What a cruel joke isn’t it? To not know you want something so badly till you have it but only to be taken away so sudden. I am devastated, sad, and heartbroken. I never knew pain like this. I feel like I lost the innocence of being pregnant.
My pills arrived on September 12th. This all happened in 2 weeks.
Now, I’d like to believe God decided for me because I could’ve chosen wrong. I am grateful that He didn’t put me in a position where I had to do an abortion or regret not having it.
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